Waves

...I know what I want.....But I just wouldn't dare....
I'd let her into my heart....but she's already there....
but she comes in waves... and I jus reach a point...
I fall OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER AGAIN.....
~Waves~
Lewis Taylor



....3rd wave.....
After experiencing Mary's show last nite in Milwaukee, I gotta say that I'm not surprised. There's never been a show of hers that I've gone to and not been satisfied, or fed musically, emotionally, or spiritually. So the fact that I left FULL last nite is nothing new. What is new to me at this point...well not so much new as much as just interesting to me is that the darkness, the pain, the sadness, the turmoil, etc etc etc...they'll always be there, but there's always another choice. This is not something I didn't already know, just something this weekend, this trip and its events, and Mary's show last nite have all reminded me of:
Life is about LIVING...We all have pasts, and sometimes present day situations that will try to steal the joy, the light, the freedom from you, but ultimately YOU, I, WE have the power, the final say in how it all goes down. It is what it is...I realize the blessings that I've been given and as a result I open my heart and continue to share them with the world, even when--ESPECIALLY when it feels like mofos are confronting me with everything BUT LOVE. It's hard sometimes...downright challenging to show love in the face of fear, hate, ignorance, stupidity, so on and so forth. But LOVE always comes back TENFOLD...even if it doesn't come from the source you may have expected it to come from, YOU ALWAYS GET IT BACK. It's funny to me how from 1991/1992 when Mary first hit the scene, there was sumthin in her voice, in her music, in her EYES that I was drawn to. I know now that you draw to you what you are. Like attracts like. So again, it should be of no surprise to me that as she's evolved, grown, fallen, suffered, cried, made mistakes, SO HAVE I.
I do not IDOLIZE her, but I DO know how GOD uses people, and how when we finally are able to tap into our OWN POWER, we become an open vessel for healing, growth, and LOVE. I can say that within the last year, after being faced with what seemed like insurmountable circumstances, I OVERCAME even those, and stepped into my own light and out of my own way. That is how, that is why, that is when Brave Soul Collective came through me...so as the Lewis Taylor song goes, and as I felt about BLIGE last nite...about ME, and my life....
I come in waves....and I've just reached a point....
I fall OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.....with MY(Self)


independence....hmmmmph.....feels pretty good...