The Bitter with the Sweet....
I haven't blogged in a bit, for numerous reasons...Because sometimes I don't know what 2 say, so I don't say shit....Other times because there's SO much goin on in my head, that even hashing it out by typin seems like too much of a chore....Tonite as I sat here for the umpteenth time in weeks trying to figure out what to say....I thought about something that I always speak of, and am constantly seeking to maintain.....BALANCE.....Polarity.....The 'Good' & the 'Bad'....The Bitter & the Sweet.This is what my life has been full of lately...I mean truthfully Im sure its ALWAYS been full of both, although sometimes it seems like more of one than the other.What I've been extremely conscious of lately however is how much more willing I've been to let shit BE what it's gonna BE. So much has happened for me this year....I've grown the fuck up in a lot of ways....I've always taken pride in the fact that I was pretty mature, but this year, in many ways....I grew up even more. What I also am able to realize just as quickly is that I still have had moments of regression, of being stagnant as well.I'll stop here for now, because my sort of 'writers block' feels like it's returning as I type this...but I will continue to elaborate on this...If I must provide a concrete example of how I feel I've 'grown up' and learned a bit....Here it is...even with this...when I feel 'stumped' and am unable to articulate my thoughts, I stop, and leave it alone....rather than tryin to force it and becoming even more frustrated, like I used to...it may sound simple, but it's also easier said than done, and I realize I've DONE it...so next time I regress...before I can let that shit snowball anymore, Ima jus cut myself sum slack and remind myself.........Balance.